I don't know. I'm confused. It is a must that before you decide to enter college, you should already know what course you're going to take. But I'm already in my second year in the tertiary level, and I still don't know what I really want. There are a lot of things going around my mind right now, and I'm having a hard time choosing. My course is Journalism, but now I'm doubting if I still want to pursue it.
I discovered my writing abilities when I was in my freshman year in high school. Since then, I started writing unfinished novels and stuff. My writing talent was exercised more when I joined our school paper in junior year... that's when I decided to take up AB Journalism in college. Another reason is because I want to write for a teen magazine. So there, I thought I made the right decision.
My first year in college only consists of minor subjects, so there were not much of writing involved. I did other stuff, like chorale singing, and as a result, I didn't get to write often. I didn't write anything for a long time. Maybe that's why now I'm not so used to writing anymore. I kind of dread writing long stuffs (which is not the way it was before), composing articles and making short stories. Now I doubt my vocabulary and grammar. I'm not that energetic to share my thoughts anymore (see the evidence). I don't know. Maybe I'm just saying that I'm not so sure about my course anymore because I've been far away from writing for a long period of time. Maybe because I'm not able to exercise and hone my writing talent anymore. Maybe I just need some refreshing. That's why I'm still going to find out. When this semester doesn't turn out successful, I don't know. I will not be able to enjoy my college learning anymore.
Okay, enough with the pen.
Ever since high school, I'm fond of making, shooting and editing videos. It's a very hard work, but it's so fun! And lately, I think I've developed an interest in film making. For my school requirements, my classmates and I made a short film, travelogue and MTV, and while making those videos, I had lots of fun. For those clips, I became the actress, host and one of the production team. But what I enjoyed the most was doing the behind-the-camera work. Y'know, shooting, measuring the right angle for each scene, finding a great location, and just snapping away. I just love it! :) Now I've downloaded a video editing software and a video converter in my laptop, so I can make more videos. I'm planning to make more short films or what. They're still plans, but I intend to do them one day.
So there, pen or camera? I really don't know. I'm still going to find out.
